I will praise you in the storm...

This was passed onto me by a dear from Lisa Smith from St. Joseph and really speaks more than I can today...

"'Learning to trust God with a life as fragile as a baby born so early is one of the hardest trials one can face. Seems silly when I think about it. The God who cut a dry path through a raging sea; the God who took a lowly shepherd boy, five stones and a sling shot and made him a warrior; the God who delivered Peter out of a guarded cell; is the same God who cupped his massive hands gently around a frail body and breathed life. The same God who laid his hands upon the lepers, the outcasts, the lame placed his hands upon my heart and said "Fear not, only believe.'

Every time I look at my precious son I remember the past, yet I can't help but think of the future. He was the best teacher I ever had. He taught me to have faith, he taught me that God cares, he taught me that we are not here by mistake or chance, but by the grace and love of God. Most importantly, he taught me humility. For apart from God I can do nothing, but with him nothing will be impossible. We are not in control, but when we loosen the grip from those things we cling so tightly to, his tender voice will cut through the icy sting of disappointment and give us the courage, strength and faith to face the trials of life head on.

One day someone asked me if I believed in miracles. I thought for a moment. 'No.' I answered to the surprise of the one who asked. Then, I continued, 'I believe in the God of miracles.'

Aren't we so very blessed to know the God of miracles, up close and personal!"

This has been a very hard day for us and for Tennyson most of all. Last night around 4am when I called to check on him I was informed that he had been returned to his oxygen, this morning we were at 1 liter and 23%. He had quite a few desats last night and just couldn't get his breathing under control. He also had an episode last night of major vomitting and this morning was having a terrible time keeping everything down. He also dropped weight last night though not much, just to 5lbs. 3.2 ounces.

All these things combined lead them to believe he has an infection somewhere however they are unable to find the infection. His CBC and CRT have come back fine so they're unable at this time to locate what's the matter. He has also been crying quite a bit, and we never cry.

We are just broken, not knowing what to do for this precious one. Please pray for Tennyson as he's struggling now with breathing and digestion and just feeling terrible, hence the crying. We also found out the antibiotic they were using to treat his eye infection treats staph E, not staph A which is what we have so hopefully we'll have something changed up tonight.

We were moved to the big boy bed yesterday which means we get to hold him as often as we want however those priviledges as well as non-nutrative and attempts to feed him with anything but the NG tube were removed from us today. Please pray for us as this is really hard for me because it was not what I had planned. I was sure we were going to be eating soon and on our way home in the next week or so...so much for my plans, Tennyson and God have others that will be far better than mine anyways.

We love you guys and today can't thank you enough for your prayers, he needs them now. Know God is holding Tennyson, us and you in His loving hands.

Thankful to the Teacher-
Travis, Lindsay & Tennyson Myers